everybody’s got that ex that they wish they never messed things up with. that memory of being able to feel good all the time, because you were surrounded by the person that mattered most. people tend to only remember the good things. the bad things, they seem not to matter so much, as long as they’re gone. but those bad things sub-consciously do affect you. it takes a lot to recognize how one person could change your life, and you may not even know it. you won’t know it, till the right person walks right into your life. and when you do realize it, you better nut up or shut up. i’ve got a lot of skeletons in my closet too, but i’m working on it. you make me want to be that better person i always was, before i lost myself along the way. you’re that constant reminder that i’ve finally got something good in my life; those eyes, that smile, the faces. i know words aren’t enough, but hey, it’s a start.
find the one girl you wouldn’t change a thing about, and hold on tight. she’ll make you the happiest you’ve been; but she’ll also make you feel like shit. she’ll tell you things you don’t want to hear; but she’ll be there when you need her most. she’ll smile and tell you everything is alright; but she’ll be lying. she’ll turn her back and walk away; but she’ll return. she’ll tell you actions speak louder then words; you better listen.
don’t let this fire die.
Four months ago today I lost one of the most influential people in my life, my grandmother. She was the nicest, most genuine & caring person I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. I woke up on Super Bowl Sunday to find out she had passed away, just only a few days after the entire family was at the nursing home celebrating her birthday. Spending three days at her wake/funeral was one of the saddest weeks I can remember experiencing, and it took a lot out of me to be there.
At least I’ve got someone up there intently looking after me. She’s no longer suffering or having to fight the pain she was going through. I keep her service card in my jacket pocket at all times to remind me that she’s always going to be there; a reminder that I had the pleasure of knowing the best woman to have ever walked on this earth.
Today marks the 2 year anniversary of me being a part of Score 24. April 25, 2009, I played my first “try-out” show at Hamilton Lanes in NJ. From that day on, I’ve been a very active member of Score 24, and it’s been one of the best experiences of my life.
I had seen the band several times prior to joining, and was always thinking they were being held back, but couldn’t figure out how. I had messaged the band on MySpace after one show, and was like “you guys should try getting a bass player and just having Rob sing. There’s so much energy in your songs, but with everyone having an instrument, you’re not playing to your full ability.” Paul was the first to read the message, and delete it hoping no one would see (dick) lol. Ryan found it in the trash can later on, and the band had discussed that it may be a good idea. However, the day they finally decided to ask me to give it a shot, was the day Set In Color had begun. But, the band I was in at the time, Set In Color, started bringing them out with us on weekends and such out of state, and we grew closer and closer to these guys. When I had parted ways with Set In Color in March 2009, I knew in the back of my mind what was going to happen -and I was exactly right.
I started coming out to Score 24 practices, and hanging out with these guys a lot more. The only show they had scheduled was April 25th in NJ - perfect spot for me to give it a shot. Ever since then, I’ve been a part of this band, and I’ve never had so much fun doing what I love before. Being in this band taught how to open up, taught me how to let loose, taught how to be myself around people I don’t know. I’ve grown to love this band and the people I play in it with. It’s made me a stronger person, in all aspects of my life.
Rob, Paul, Ryan, Joey, Jay, Pasini - I love you guys <3
This weekend was awesome. About to head to the gym then over to the Vibe Lounge to see some friends. Score 24 had a great two shows this weekend: Philadelphia & Long Island. I’m working the next 6 days straight, so this week will probably suck, but leaving for tour in a little over two weeks again, and I couldn’t be more excited.
Let me know if I’ll be in a town near you :)
04/08 - Anchors Up! - Haverhill, MA
04/09 - The Ruins - Providence, RI
04/10 - Dino’s - Brewer, ME
04/11 - Ground Zero - Allenstown, NH
04/12 - The Canvas Clash - Boonton, NJ
04/14 - Bogie’s - Albany, NY
04/15 - Crocodile Rock Cafe - Allentown, PA
04/16 - Mount Olive High School - Flanders, NJ
04/17 - The Space - Hamden, CT
A fresh start, a second shot. For the first time in months, I can finally say that I’m happy with where I am in my life. People will never understand why I do the things I do, nor piece together the sense in why I do these things. But for once in my life, everything is finally falling into place. For those of you who don’t know about my pride & joy, Score 24, make sure to check it out. www.facebook.com/score24. For those of you who know and support what I’ve been involved in the past two years of my life, I honestly cannot thank you enough for everything you’ve done for this band, and believe me when I say in these next two months; your mind will be blown. We’ve got a bunch of announcements and big things coming, so keep an eye out. As for my band mates, I’ve never felt so close to the four people I share our mini-bus with as our home while on the road. Especially on this last tour, I felt like everything just automatically fell into place, aside from the sporadic arguments and times we may be upset with one another. Score 24 is my family away from home, and I’m glad to have this experience as a part of my life.
This blog was started with the full intent to give those who are interested in what’s going on in my head, a little insight on who I am. I’m a shy person, as those who have come out to Score 24 shows may already know, and I am a very nervous person talking to people I don’t particularly know all that well. But overall, I’m a nice guy. Get to know me, bear with me. Give me a second chance.
Love you guys, and see y’all soon. Make sure to come out to our next tour in April with our buddies in Giants At Large.